Tough News

I've already posted this on Facebook, and emailed it to my nears and dears. (I'm sorry if I left you out of the loop nears and dears, it was an email error, not a statement.) But a blog is, after all, a log.

Here's the message to our friends that Z eloquently composed. http://zipl.org/toughnews.html

When we discovered I was pregnant I wrote so many blog entries in my mind... about feeling sick and about not feeling sick, about swallowing whole books on pregnancy and childbirth... about the excitement of getting to know Z as a father as well as an amazing person, and partner, a competent, clever, funny person... about the fun of having pregnant friends. About a million things. I told myself to write them, but was too disappointed about having to have a secret, too distracted by experiencing all these crazy things to sit down and write about it in any disciplined way.

It's strange that I kept this big secret for all that time, only to tell everyone right before it was all over. Very strange.

This was in every way a fantastic practice for the baby to someday come. We got to find out how our midwives are in a crisis (very supportive, compassionate and present) and how we are. (Z is everything a person could ask for.) I learned about how my body deals with pregnancy, and to a lesser extent how it is with labor. We know what a fantastic and loving community we're in. I'm grateful for all of this.